You never liked my tattoos or the way that I cut my hair
You say that you love me you just hate everything I am
Pick apart all the pieces you like
All the images you want to see
It's alright throw away all the rest
It's just all of me
And I've spent the last decade or so trying to unlearn
How you taught me to hate myself
All my pages are burned
You don't know who I am
You simply know all you wish to see
You love everything that I never was
You hate everything that's real inside of me
I studied until I knew nothing at all
All I learned turned into hollow beliefs
Learning to apologize for everything that's not my fault
Now I fight to live unapologetically
And I've spent the last decade or so trying to unlearn
How you taught me to hate myself
All my pages are burned
You don't know who I am
You simply know all you wish to see
You love everything that I never was
You hate everything that's real inside of me
Maybe this time around
I will learn to love myself
Maybe this time around
I will learn to love myself
Maybe this time around
I will learn somehow to love myself
credits
from gold in repair,
track released July 1, 2022
Producer: John Hanifin
Mixing Engineer: David Rosenthal
Mastering Engineer: Robert L. Smith
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